Friday, November 16, 2007
when I'm with you,i can feel very blessed,feel happy,feel sad,feel very hurt.
i never had this kind of feelings before.
when i used to be single,i was thinking why my friends,because of some problems in their relationship,they will cry.
i told them,if it was me,i won't cry over such matter.
if want break then just let it be.
but now i could finally understand why is it so difficult to let go,and it can make a person cry,and so much agony:( it was really painful.
how i wished i was single all along.
and not get into such relationship.it really hurt much.
it's you who bring so much joy to my life,
and
it's you who bring so much misery to my life.
without you,i could be much better right now.
but now,i really couldn't get over it with you.
you just stand so much percent in my life now.
how am i suppose to let you go?
even if i can't,i need to try.
i wish to give you a chance.but can you promise that you won't make the same mistake again?
and if i give you a chance,will you take it for granted?
what if you take it for granted,will you be hurting my heart again and again?
and who will be the one who is giving me a chance?
NO ONE!my mind now is in a whirl,i don't what i should do now.
whether to give you another chance?or just break up.
seeing your sms,makes me cry.i really wanted to give you another chance.
cos i still loves you.but i am afraid,you will hurt me again and again.
i don't want to be tied up with the same thing again.
it took me quite a long time to have the courage to break up with you,
and set my mind up.
even when i dream,i dream that we are quarreling.
but when sms came,it totally changed my mind.
i really wanted to give you a chance.
but i was thinking,will you treasure it?ask yourself please.
i don't want you to give me such a big blow again.
i really can't take it anymore.my head is very pain now.cracking the cells up.
should i reply your sms?or not?i am thinking real hard.
i can't bare to leave you too.
i can only have 2 choices.
but now,i really don't know.
i hope you can take the initiative to read my blog and know how i am feeling.
but i never regret being together with you.
it's you who slowly touches my heart,by your sincerity,your concern,your care and your perseverance.
no matter how long you will still wait for me,and slowly touches my heart.
sweetie,i really do loves you a lot,but you kept doubting my love towards you.
and even said i treat you like shit.
do you know you hurt my heart deeply?by saying all these?
but last of all,
baby,i love you as much as you love me.i don't blame you for anything.
please trust me.
wrote on Saturday,November 17,2007,1 pm.
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