I am damn damn moody now. Wanted to write all my feelings that i can't express here. Actually 2 more days and i am able to go to genting with my love one. But he's sick at the moment and we decided to cancel our trip.

Yesterday he called me and tell me that let's cancel our trip as he is feeling worse and worse. My tears straight drop down. Maybe cos of my huge disppointment, therefore my tears keep rolling down. I try to control my emotion, but it just can't be helped. I was all alone in call centre as khatijah and amme is out of that office at the moment. I cried and cried while talking with him but i try not to let him know that i was crying. Soon after we hang up our phone. At that point of time, i was in great disppointment and some anger. Why all this things have to happen just before our genting trip. After that i send him a sms telling him how disppointed i am and when he call and tell me we don't cancel it and we still proceed to our trip. But my mood is all gone and i throw my tantrum at him. Quarrelling with him. Actually i am angry with him not because that he wants to cancel the trip, it's because that Wed he is already not feeling well and i did ask him to consult doctor and take MC for Thursday but he insist he's fine and went to work for Thursday. In my heart i was thinking, he can work so hard until he is sick and not willing to go on MC, but when comes to tour, he wants to cancel and rest at home. Meaning that working to him is much more important compare to me as he can easily give up on this trip which makes me feel so upset, angry and disppointed. This is where i feel so angry towards him yesterday without even considering how serious is his sickness and makes me don't seems like i am caring and concerning about him. He might think that i am cold blooded and doesn't care about him at all, But in actual facts i am concern about him at all times. If Wed he did listen to me and took his MC on thurs i won't mind him cancel his trip cos i know he is seriously sick. Yesterday what i talk to him is way too hurtful. Cos i am still angry with him for not listening to me to take his MC and wanna cancel the trip. I told him to pass me all the documents and i can go with other friend. He said no, if 1 never go, both also don't go. I say i don't care give me ALL. He then asked me who i wanna go with, i say no need him to care. After that he said FINE don't acknowledge him as my boyfriend, he will pass me everything. Hangs up. I know the way i talk to him is damn harsh just to throw tantrum at a sickly person like him. This time round i am really at fault. I wanna show care and concern but in a wrong way. Put myself into his shoe, if i am the 1 sick and wants to cancel the trip, and he says nvm he goes with his friend, i also will feel pissed off. But i am only using this to vent anger and not seriously will go with my friend alone without him.

Today went to his house to visit him, he's really damn sick, keep vomiting, diarreoh, fever, coughing. Seeing him in this manner makes me heart pain. And thinking back of everything i did the day before, showing attitude, throwing tantrum.... i really feel that i am not a good girlfriend. Only know how to show attitude when people is really sick. I think if it were to be other way round, i am the 1 who fall sick, i think he will understand me and take pretty good care of me. My main purpose today is to take care of him, but i am good for nothing, i only can do nothing there. No help at all, really felt so useless. The only thing i can do is sit beside him and watch him sleep. After that i asked him to bath and will feel better but his mum doesn't allow this and that, so i have nothing to say but to keep quiet in case i say something wrong again. Maybe because of his mum is consider more to those old modern. Unlike my parents. Gap difference. So his mum was the only 1 taking care of him. I left his place around 7 plus and went to meet hy and jr. Watch HANDSOME SUIT. Nice show anyway. Finish show at around 1205am and we took bus 80 home as there's no more train. Chatting in bus with hy. About him and jr. I keep express all my troubles to her. Keep thinking and thinking in bus. Really felt so miserable. I think that he can find a better ladies with good figures and pretty faces with good personality. I am a disppointment to him. I don't wish to drag him any longer. I not fit to be his girlfriend and i am a lousy person. I have no more assurance in this relationship because of my stupid behaviour and attitude. Thou he treat me well, but it won't last because of me..That's all i can say. Last of all i am really sorry.

GOOD FRIDAY~

Update on good friday, went to suntec with hy and ys. As usual, chit chat and play arcade basketball. Always having fun with them. Heh. We sit down at the "MY PLAYGROUND" there and chit chat cos there are chairs for us to sit down. Talk talk talk about our school days in primary and secondary school all the way till almost 9pm then we went home as hy is working morning shift the next day. Theirs school time is much more interesting than mine cos during primary school i was quite a anti-social person. HAHAHA!!After which we went down to suntec convention centre and took bus 133 cos i am going to AMK to meet my boyfriend, and hy drop off the same stop as ys at boon keng 1st as the bus is freaking cold. Haha. After that i took the bus all the way to AMK and meet him there. We watch the sniper, by edison and some hk actors. Not a bad show. After that he sent me home and that's the end of my day:)

16TH March

Boyfriend came to my house and fetch me. He bought a EVERLAST bag for me! I thought he buy for me accessories because the day before he told me to wear to work and out with him. Naturaly when people see the word "WEAR", of cos is something that i could wear. How to wear a bag? LOL. Anyway the bag is way too big to bring out for normal shopping and work. Hehe but thanks dear anyway. I love it. Afterward, Went to Sun Plaza to purchase our tickets to Malaysia, GENTING!!!WEEEEE! After so long staying in Singapore, finally got the chance to go out of this country. My last visit to Malaysia was 2003. Been 6 YEARS i never went overseas. Took my annual leave for 1 day. We went for a 3 days 2 nights trip:) so happy that i can travel with him. First time going overseas without my parents. Kinda excited. But i am sure he will take very good care of me. So i don't have to worry. I'll be going away on the 27th-29th. After working for nearly 1 year, finally i can relax! 1 more week to go~ lalala!! After we purchase our tickets for our genting trip, we went to orchard to catch a movie call 17 AGAIN. Nice show too. Sweet. Ate donut in the cinema as i am craving for it. HAHA suddenly just feel like eating chocolate donut=p Finish movie, went to suntec to eat his SHI LIN Chicken and i eat the oyster mee sua. OOOOO NICE! hehe but was too full to eat. Went to fountain there, sit at the chair chit chat till near 1030 we took bus 70 home. Darling i enjoy my day with you!

TODAY

My mum's birthday today. Fork out 50 bucks to treat her eat fish steamboat and some other dishes. Total of 65 bucks. My dad paid the balance. Hehe. Nice food. Went to bugis shopping for clothes. My dad bought 3 shirts for me! hehe so nice of him! As for my bro, he damn blood sucker, ask my dad to buy for him 1 chelsea jersey from ADIDAS. 80+ bucks. Damn don't know how to earn money know how to spend money only. What to do, my dad still buy for him. Too generous already. Haha! My dad just dote us too much. :) After that i saw bubble tea, feel like drinking chocolate ice blend. So i asked my dad what flavour he wants also. He say he wants the durian milkshake. So i took out my wallet, wanna treat him drink. But suddenly he just took out 10 bucks from his wallet and pay for me. Aww such a nice dad where to find! That's why i respect and love him so much. Thanks dad. Everything done, and we went home. Now i feeling quite tired already. Haha no work also tired. No choice. Not enough sleep. Anyway gotta end here. Tata!

Will upload pictures again!






4TH OF MARCH

Boring boring BORING!~ what a boring day! half the day at home slack. OH MAN! luckily around 5, mum called and asked me whether i wanna go my grandma house to eat dinner or not. I consider for awhile, then i said ok. Then i text hy, whether she wanna meet me at AMK Hub at night after her dating with JUNRONG. Her "so called" going to be boyfriend, as from what i see, it's the matter of time! HEHE. I text my boyfriend too, and asked him whether wanna meet me after his work cos i thought hy will be going off around 10 plus and by the time he reach, they might already left. But hy told me that she will only go air port to meet her mum at 11 plus. So nevermind anyway he wanna come meet me^__^ ok then i met ys at AMK 1st, i went bought a cardigan from THISFASHION. WOO quite nice. hehe, and i head down to meet her at AMK Hub. We buy bubble tea and chit chat while waiting for that princess to come. Then after that we went to S11 to have their dinner. Ys buy fish and chips whereas hy bought satay. I eat 2 sticks of satay as i am quite full. Finish our dinner we went to jubilee to play arcade. Our all time favourite BASKETBALL again! Waste quite alot of money on that. Actually we play solo, but then it's way too tiring. And we think of a tactics. So we divide ourselves into 3. Each of us take 1 stage. At 1st ys is not so good at it. But end up finally she got the hand of it. And keep scoring. All thanks to her in order for us to go all the way to stage 4. HEHE! Play till really sweat alot. Suddenly my boyfriend suddenly appeared and carry me up. Give me a shocked man! Then he also start to play a few match of bball. His score always so damn sucks! HAHA! Played awhile more then the already going 11. So decided to send hy and ys to their bus stop but my boyfriend wanna send me home so he say let's go home with them together also. Anyway it's fine with me. But never did we expect the bus in AMK end so early. 1130 and the last bus for 24 left. End up hy get scolded by her dad for not keeping track of the time and she didn't get to the airport to fetch her mum. So we took 853 to my house and she change to bus 43 and go home. Since it's late so my boyfriend straight go home from AMK and not to trouble him. Thanks for coming to accompany me all.

6TH OF MARCH

Went jurong point to walk with my boyfriend. Since we can't think of anywhere to go. Hehe. Anyway been few years i never been to JP. Now it become much more bigger with the extention. Slowly walk walk around. Then we went to buy movie tickets for the JACKY CHAN show. WOW damn nice leh! 5 stars for it. 1st time see this kind of action show that makes me intrested. Before that we went arcade to play bball also. Not that fun as the ball all very bouncy. So decided to play car racing. BOO i win him! hehe!=P Ok finish the show, went to walk around NTUC Xtra. Shop shop inside and went to the fish section. The live prawns jump and some of the water splash onto him. Then i ask him to go the basin there to wash his hand. He spit the saliva out into the basin and there's this uncle say him, cannot anyhow spit on the basin. Then he say back, cos your prawn splash water on me. Then there's a few people looking at them. I felt abit embarrass as none of my cliques would ever dare to say like this. Then i disturb him and say him very guai lan. Haha anyway just joking with him about him making me paiseh. Then he can start to nag all the way. Till we reach kopitiam. Then we say till the topic again and i asked him don't say anymore so i just say okok and cover his mouth. He keep on talking and i just walk away covering my ears. Suddenly he just flare up on me. So he just sit down and i follow him sit down. Talk to him nicely but he still give me face. So i also angry. Say finish and i just kept quiet. Both of us keep quiet and he suddenly just grab my hand and talk to me again. I just don't wanna talk to him so i face away. Suddenly don't know why i just lean my head on the table and just cried. He keep force me to look at him but i just refuse. He said ok la don't want look at me then don't look la. Later he got angry again and just use his strength and force me up. Quite stunned. After awhile talking to me, i finally cool down. He got the ability to make me flare up and cool down easily=P.. Nevermind past already so forget it. Went to have our dinner and play bball again at zone X. After he went to my house and we sit in my room and chit chat awhile and he went home around 11 plus. Send him down to bus stop, he went 7-11 and buy his drink and he bought mini cornetto for me. So sweet of him^__^! Waited for awhile and he got up his bus. Anyway i enjoy every moments with him although we will have some arguements and quarrels, but things can be solved. Muacks i love you.



As for today, it's my colleague Brenda's last day of work. She will be leaving today. So colleagues shared money amoung each other to buy her a cake as a farewell gift. Anyway Brenda you take care and all the best in your future path. Pictures we took today!

[x]Hoon Qiu Ning <3.
[x] 13th September 1988, Her Big Day
[x] 22 years old
[x] Single
I love freedom!



Mystery

Simple


[x]Green
[x]Foods
[x]Drinks
[x]Happiness
[x]Families
[x]Friends
[x]Money
[x]OF COS,MYSELF and and and HIM


[x]GOSSIPERS
[x]Backstabber
[x]Insect
[x]Heartbreaker
[x]Empty Promises
[x]Flirt
[x]People who think they are perfect?when they aren't?
[x]Criticized people when they ain't good either?


o Happy with him always
o More love from him
o Happy Family and Friends
o Good Career
o Lose weight
o Driving license
o Car
o More clothings
o BurBerry Handbag
o Braun Buffel Wallet
o 1 CARAT DIAMOND RING
o New Bracelet,necklace and anklet
o GOOD HUSBAND THAT'S OF COURSE!
o Eat all the nice food
o Big House
o More money
I am easily contented,ain't i?just a simple wish will do for me.






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