Saturday, March 6, 2010
Why suddenly sees me blogging?
Once I am blogging, you will know I am having problems.
Everytime I have trouble or problems to face, the only thing I can thrash everything out is
MY BLOG. I can express well by blogging and typing it down.
Now i finally understand one phrase that i should say it's really true.
: " A leopard will never changed it's spots. "
Indeed, the leopard is me. I am a devil.
I have understand why in my previous relationship, it's a failure.
Because of my fucking attitude. Sometimes i know i am in the wrong,
but i just wouldn't admit it. I stick to what i think i am ALWAYS RIGHT!
I don't blame the first guy for leaving me, it's the consequences that i have to bare.
Although after the first one left me, i told myself,
after this failed relationship, i need to treasure the second one.
Ya i did treasure the second one for the first 6 months.
But..... it turned out to be the same. I am ill treating him.
Some small matter, no matter i also want to get angry with him.
I don't know why, might be because i always like bully guys who treats me good.
Like i said, even i said before i want to treat my future boyfriend good,
but
leopard will never changed it's spots, now i really realise that this sentence,
is PERFECT for me.
Seriously i don't deserved a boyfriend who care and treats me good.
Whoever is with me, will suffer.
Even my parents told me before, if i don't change my attitude,
no guys will be able to tolerate my nonsense.
Well i guess it's true, i seriously can't change myself to suit another.
I am already trying, but my short temper makes it even worse.
Sometimes i really HATED myself for being myself.
I am getting bad to worse.
So you don't have to treasure such a girl like me.
I am not a good girlfriend.....
