Sunday, December 30, 2007
what the fuck i am doing nowadays?
i keep getting so pissed off with him in whatever he does.
but i am angry that he always believe people easily.
i angry that he never use his brain at all.
i want him to learn himself not to trust people so easily.
i can't control myself.i called him and scolded him for his stupidity.
i am very mad!i scold and scold till he shouted at me.
felt like crying now.but what can i do?he never ever shout at me before,
and now,he is shouting at me. i think our relationship is getting worst and worst.
we only started out for only 4mths and yet all this have to happen.
really at a lost.think we are ending soon.
i knew that,if my personality still like that,i think no guys would ever wants me.
no guys could stand my temper.
think he will be giving up soon.i keep yelling at him,bullying him and all sorts.
someday somehow i knew this would be ending soon.
but it's ok if he wants to end it. cos all along,it has always be my fault for taking him for granted.
thinking that i could scold him whenever i likes.
using him as my so call "chu qi tong".
i really don't want it to happen,but i really can't control myself.
sometimes i really hate myself for being like that.
and lastly,i am sorry.i will try to control my this fucking temper.
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