Tuesday, July 22, 2008
This is the probably last post for you. ya thanks so much for being my boyfriend and letting me have such kind of experience. we have been like quarreling through our way out. maybe because of my stupid attitude which makes you leave me. i don't blame you for leaving. after taking so much stress from me. well i really kinda excited waiting for our 1 year anniversary to come. but the day will never come i think. you've really changed a lot. no more caring to me. use words to hurt me. no matter how hard i cry. you don't care anymore. from your word yesterday, it was really hurting. i cried infront of my colleague. but well, all of them come and comfort me. giving me support. i can find a BETTER GUY! yeah that's what i think. womens are like diamonds. a shining one. not a crystal, and i am the good quality diamond which is shining up brightly. that's what my colleague told me. i really agree. i am sure that there will be someone, that will appreciate all my outer and inner beauty. so maybe you're just not that person which love me whole heartedly. you think more of my bad points than good points. which already shows something. you don't treasure me. if you've thought of my good points, you won't mind all this bad points. and you are the one, who keep pestering me. to accept you, to give you chance. at 1st i tried hard to accept you. but is really difficult. cause all along, i wanted a handsome boyfriend, a rich man. but because you. i thrown my mindset away. i am a person with pride. from the day you chase me so hard. you should have know my personality. and yesterday i just can't imagine i say those stuff to you. i really put down all my pride. maybe from that week before i should have just let you go. i have my friends and family. they are all encouraging me. i am still young. so what for cry over a tree instead a forest? you are a egoistic person. you care much more for yourselves than me. our honeymoon period is over. i think we are still not mature enough to handle our relationship. since you don't wanna give me chance to try all over again. i won't force you. i have think it through. i am going to meet you later. i will try to control my emo later without crying. i will still be as cool as now. freedom!here i come:)
i'll just kiss you on the mouth. if i feel that the feeling is already gone. then let this be our very last kiss. but i still won't forget you as my best friend. we still can stay in contact no matter what. if i wanna go shopping or you wanna go shopping. we still can accompany each other as a friend.
and you are forever my precious guy. you got any problem you still can come to me if you want find someone to talk. i'll always be there for you. goodbye my past love:)
