Tuesday, July 22, 2008
This is the probably last post for you. ya thanks so much for being my boyfriend and letting me have such kind of experience. we have been like quarreling through our way out. maybe because of my stupid attitude which makes you leave me. i don't blame you for leaving. after taking so much stress from me. well i really kinda excited waiting for our 1 year anniversary to come. but the day will never come i think. you've really changed a lot. no more caring to me. use words to hurt me. no matter how hard i cry. you don't care anymore. from your word yesterday, it was really hurting. i cried infront of my colleague. but well, all of them come and comfort me. giving me support. i can find a BETTER GUY! yeah that's what i think. womens are like diamonds. a shining one. not a crystal, and i am the good quality diamond which is shining up brightly. that's what my colleague told me. i really agree. i am sure that there will be someone, that will appreciate all my outer and inner beauty. so maybe you're just not that person which love me whole heartedly. you think more of my bad points than good points. which already shows something. you don't treasure me. if you've thought of my good points, you won't mind all this bad points. and you are the one, who keep pestering me. to accept you, to give you chance. at 1st i tried hard to accept you. but is really difficult. cause all along, i wanted a handsome boyfriend, a rich man. but because you. i thrown my mindset away. i am a person with pride. from the day you chase me so hard. you should have know my personality. and yesterday i just can't imagine i say those stuff to you. i really put down all my pride. maybe from that week before i should have just let you go. i have my friends and family. they are all encouraging me. i am still young. so what for cry over a tree instead a forest? you are a egoistic person. you care much more for yourselves than me. our honeymoon period is over. i think we are still not mature enough to handle our relationship. since you don't wanna give me chance to try all over again. i won't force you. i have think it through. i am going to meet you later. i will try to control my emo later without crying. i will still be as cool as now. freedom!here i come:)
i'll just kiss you on the mouth. if i feel that the feeling is already gone. then let this be our very last kiss. but i still won't forget you as my best friend. we still can stay in contact no matter what. if i wanna go shopping or you wanna go shopping. we still can accompany each other as a friend.
and you are forever my precious guy. you got any problem you still can come to me if you want find someone to talk. i'll always be there for you. goodbye my past love:)
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Seems so long didn't blog already. Cause nowadays is real damn tired.
working and sorts. Yup now updating my current stuff. heh.
just quit my photocopying job at peace centre. well the people there is quite ok,only for some.
i know somehow i will quit the job cause i keep can't get used to it.
it's pretty stress there. need to remember this and that. oh my goodness lor!
do wrong things and being scolded for being careless.
ask more and double confirm also being scolded. what the hell?
maybe i blame myself for being such a slow learner, and my stupidity.
what can i do? lol.
so i told my boss, i want to quit at the end of June. she seemed so happy-.-
and once Saturday comes, after work, she straight ask me come over,
and says she wanna talk to me. To my surprise, she actually calculate finish my pay,
ask me whether am i sure that i wanna quit?i say ya.
then she give me the cheque, ask me don't have to report anymore.
i wanted to help her work till monday but she doesn't appreciate my kindness.
Cause i was afraid that they might not have enough people to cover my stuff, and 1 of the experience auntie there was resigning too.
but to my surprise, they wanted me to leave as soon as possible.
their reason is : monday won't have much things to do, so you don't have to come anymore.
so from then on, i knew that they thinking i was a waste of money to them.
kick me out as soon as possible to decrease their losses.
then i was like LOL! my father guess it! that they won't want to keep me either.
haha! ok enough of this shit.
back to my current life.
now i was working in courts. which evon introduce me into it.
i was in the wizkid department. so far it was my 2nd day and the staff there was quite nice and friendly.
hehe! but only for now. i can't predict the future.
who knows what others are thinking. but with my purify heart. i don''t think will have anything happen?o.o!
must look look see see. hehe!
today weekend really quite BUSY.OMG!
I WAS GOING TO FAINT!
yesterday was slack! haha so see the difference?o.o!
it was only my 2nd day and something happened.
my colleague handphone drop inside the toilet bowl and being flush away.
haha that's the 1st time i see such things. so surprise. and the toilet bowl was not even stuck!
anyway feel sorry for her. cos it's not a cheap phone.
ok stop my working life here.
want to say about my boyfriend.
just damn pissed off by him. called him and want him to talk to me. he went to sleep while i was talking.
what the fuck?!
aiya whatever it is. i heck care.
when i really don't give a damn to him.
then he start to panic and keep on calling and messaging me.
if not, he won't even bother to take the 1st initiative to sms me or call me.
what a useless boy. only now he keep calling. i rather he don't call.
haiz. whatever la. going sleep now and prepare for work tomorrow.
nights:)
