Friday, February 20, 2009
Headache headache! early this morning got a sms from my ex-boyfriend. Saying :" Up till now i still can't stop thinking of you, but i can't imagine to see you again,everytime i imagine if i see you outside my thinking will be want to hide from you." I was awake by his sms. I read it and just fall back into sleep. Then i had nightmare about him, keep pestering me, and we even chat on the phone. I dream he even kneel down and knock his head on the floor and beg me not to leave him. Oh my god man, it just seem so real. Had a headache when i wake up to go for work. Never had a proper sleep after seeing those message. HAIS when will all this stop? today i went work was totally blurred. I write down the HCC things without even sorting out different catagories. But after working awhile then feel much more better. Today philip aunty cook soup and choco cakes damn nice. HAHA i love the soup so SWEET~yummy. Also got the nuo mi fan, mike use it to tempt me, hahaha! but too full to eat it. Then talk cock with him, and come to some topic link with my boyfriend. Hehe. He say me cling onto him don't want let him go. I asked him you so sure is i am the one who cling onto him not he cling onto me is it? HAHA. After that He told me my boyfriend very cute, keep disturbing him ask him who is your girlfriend, what's her name, and he don't dare to say out my name. Only tell him : " there that 1 lor, from mega that 1." Then mike say he disturb him again and say mega so many how he know which 1. Hahaha. After that mike say he ask him will he have another girlfriend next time anot, and he told mike won't, i am the last 1 to him. Then mike ask him, you so sure and serious? Then he pause and think for awhile , and say ya. Then i say aiya now he at woodland courts later he find pretty girls and will go for it. Then he say woodland all old aunty no pretty girl except for 1 female promoter very pretty. Haha the way mike say it so funny. And we also talk about his personality, that he's very career minded which mike and me also agreed. I told mike i won't be surprise that he put career infront of me. Anyway he's still young and still have lots to learn. Mike also asked me is he hot-tempered, and i say yes sometimes. One advice is to control his own temper in work is a must. Which i think it's true. Anyway just quarrel with him. Things settled. Bad temper people is like that. I am not a good temper person also. That's why always hard to hard. Sometimes somehow really tired of that. I just can't change my temper. I know my temper sucks. But when i am good i can be real good:) But mostly i am good if you don't step on my tail=P Just now even my mum ask me when can i change my stupid temper. Last time also like that now also. That's my personality what, i just have the same temper as my father. Hais, sorry i didn't want it to be this way either. One more thing is about my colleagues. Heard the stories between him and her. Felt so disappointed in the guy whom i USED TO ADMIRE previously when i first step in Courts. Now not anymore. Really drop all the way to the bottom of my heart. He seem so decent,innocent type and yet, when there are girl who free give herself to him, he actually go for it and did all those kind of things and their relationship is just FRIENDS. What to say? really makes me disppointed in guys. Should i say the guy cheap? or the girl cheap? or both even better? Guys doesn't seem to have those kind of resistance huh? as long as the girl give herself to them, they just "eat". Am i right to say? Sometimes i wish i am single and can play as much as i want, but now i have my boy, i don't want to think about all this things, like what people always say, not all guys is the same. So i have faith in him that he is out of so many guys, he's the only few that won't do this kind of things. He have his own principal and that's what he told me. If he break his own principal i make sure he kanna AIDS. HAHAHA! SEE YOU DARE ANOT. Hmm.... very tired now. Tomorrow need to wake up at 6am with her for the singapore flyer. SINCE WHEN WE BECOME SUCH A TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN! OMG!!KIASU!anyway i'll end here. update soon!my dear lawrence ang guan nam.. sorry always treat you so bad and yet you always make the first move to apologise. But this time round is really your fault for showing me attitude. And to be honest to you, i really disappointed in guys whom i see and know so far. Hope you are totally different from the rest of the guys. I have faith in you. I just can't tolerate this kind of guys. Temper i can tolerate but not this. If you don't treasure me, all i do is just leave. But i do hope you treasure me always. When i am not with you,i can't take care of you, Please do take good care of yourselves, don't get cut here and there,love you.....
