Friday, December 18, 2009
Have been long long time since i update my blog.
Writting this post is to let me release my stress i have these few days.
It has been accumulated in my heart i feel like i am bursting out real soon.
I feel so stress, so tired.........
Haven't been in good terms with my boyfriend this few days.
What's more? His temper, his attitude is all coming out.
I really hate it! Now, little things can make him burst out on me.
Shouting at me right infront of the public where people are looking at us,
IT DAMN LOUD TILL THE PEOPLE SHOPPING STOPPED AND LOOK! ATMOSPHERE SILENT...
showing me faces and sorts. I am really pissed off.
Pissed till i only have one thinking, "break off".
I already have zero tolerance on people who shout at me.
Yet a boyfriend doesn't understand what I want.
Thou i know he treats me good, but sometimes i really can't tolerate the way he treats me.
Ups and Downs, tired.... really tired.....
Seems like things work out for now and he promised me that he won't shout at me again.
But is it true? I asked myself. Will he do it again?
I've told him, I am the person who i hate people shouting at me.
One more time, I will leave. Not because i don't love you anymore.
Cause i am being forced to do so. And you FORCED me.
The shadow of Victor seems to be back from him.
It makes me feel damn scared.. damn damn scared..........
Why i said that, it's cause the both of them can't control their emotion well.
I already have the fobia there.
I just feel like crying out loud. I ain't as strong as some of my friends,
although i might look happy-go-lucky to my friends,
comes to relationship, i am weak.
Friendship is not smooth as well as my relationship. I don't know what the fuck is going on.
Hy will be leaving in approx 2 months time.
I will have one less buddy whom i can confide to.
I really feel so stress.......Typing all this post with my tears dropping non-stop.
Who can tell me what to do?
I am a failure in everything.
A TOTAL FAILURE.....
