Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Hy just left my house...... I am feeling so down right now. YA RIGHT NOW!Although I try to stay calm and cool infront of her. But I feel like crying out to her.I keep forced myself to relax while talking with her. I know she knows how i feel,just that she keep chatting with me to divert my mind. Without her, no one could advice me what to do. Am I in the wrong or am i not? Why can't his mother gets to know me well.Instead of getting along with me, no matter what i do, is wrong wrong WRONG! I am on the phone with him and talking with him and not her. What for she join in the conversation and critised me? Although i know she is talking to her son, but she is indirectly pin point at me. Saying out loud so that i can hear what she is talking. When i heard what she said to him, my tears just drop. Ya maybe she is not my friend nor kin. But i am just hurt that my partner's mum critised me. If she is nobody to me, i won't even give a damn about her. Why i am so angry and pissed? Because she is his MOTHER! If she is not his mother i will have already FUCKED her upside down. But what to do? i have to tolerate. I have told him, since his mum don't like me, what for being together? We won't be happy in the end. Unless his mum give us her blessing. I have been trying to give in to his mum, whenever i sees her, i will greet and show mannerism to her. What's more she want? Is it a break up can make her feel happy so that she can keep her son with her? Isn't that selfish? Another thing which he came clear to me that he used an excuses that he mum fall so that he could not fetch me back from work to home, instead he can only meet me at my house there straight. He says that actually the truth is that he argue with his mum about me. Why so much trouble and effort to lie to me again! I am freaking disappointed although i know it's a white lie....... All i want is the truth of everything and stop making up stories so i can feel sorry and pity for you. Please tell your mum that, I asked you to swear is because of the things you did. Make me do this. And it's not my fault for being like this. In order for me to trust you I only have this way and you are the one who say that you will do whatever it takes to let me believe in you again. But did you or not. You lied once again. I hate liars. You can tell me it's white lies but when things became big, it will no longer be white lies. Understand?
