Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Today suppose to be a happy day, gathering with yuan shan and hauyee,
@ crystal jade xiao long bao which is located at holland V.
But it turns out bad, real damn bad.
As usual had a big argument with him again.
Why everytime when meeting out with my friends,
there will sure be arguments. I really feel so so so awkward towards my friends.
I am so sorry to cause all these trouble infront of you guys.
Quarrels spoilt my mood therefore i do not really have mood to chat with them.
Yet my boyfriend says that I am laughing happily and not caring him at all.
i felt very nonsense. He doesn't even try to understand me and all he knows is
to think for himself. Not considering my feelings when i am with my friends.
Obviously i can't show my friends black face like as if they are the ones who makes
me angry, am i right? I know who to smile at and who not to.
I got my own ways of handling things.
If you are not the one who makes me angry, of cause i won't give you a black face.
Somehow i am really really sad and disappointed that he shout at me ONCE again,
After hauyee and yuan shan left.
This time round i cried again, after they left. I have been trying to hold my tears
already when i am at the restaurant.
I cried so hard even my eyes are swollen now.
Although now we have forgive each other, but my heart still hurts.
Really hurts. Hurt? Cause he did not keep his promise by not shouting at me.
I hope that there won't be next time. I am really sick and tired,
I am not sure how long can i hold on this relationship,
if all this still continues. Promise to me, is a very important thing,
that makes me trust or not to trust a person.
Once a promise is broken. Trust is all shattered.
Bits and pieces...... How long will it takes to recover? I have no idea.
Anyway, sorry to my buddies that i have spoilt their good day too.
Good night.
